As things go, we are pretty blessed in our lives. We have two beautiful little girls, a great marriage and wonderful family. We are also a couple who can see that there are certain agendas being pushed in the public schools, pushing a value system in direct conflict with ours and trying to get to children before they absorb their parents values, we have been considering homeschooling. We have been trying to put in place a plan so that when our oldest is kindergarten age in just a few more years, we can have me be a stay at home mom full time and continue the teaching process that begins from when our little cherubs arrive in this world.
Unfortunately, we have experienced an unexpected setback in this goal. We found out almost two weeks ago now, that we will need to move out of our home and most likely are going to be moving in with my parents, hopefully for only a short period of time. It is not something we expected, is really through no fault of our own, but we find ourselves in a bind.
I'm not going to get into very much detail here, but I know I am angry and my husband is as well. In my other blog, Catholic Mom in NH, I posted that "hope doesn't disappoint" and I'm trying to focus on that and let go of the anger. But this is really pretty hard for me right now. I can't help but feel let down (not by my husband) and am so disppointed. We did everything we could possibly do, and then some, to make our situation work. However, there is nothing more that can be done and we remain unsure about the timeframe of our impending move. Having everything up in the air is not something that sits well with me, but maybe this is one of my first "homeschooling" lessons that I need to learn: Life is uncertain, we do not have control, nor can we expect that all of our decisions will work the way we intend. External forces have a way of pushing us in different directions. Homeschooling directly mirrors this from what I understand. Parents do their best to only discover that their "plan" doesn't work for their child and they have to ditch that plan and start from scratch, often in a completely new direction.
God has a plan for us and I'm hoping that what He has in store is actually going to help us to attain our goal of homeschooling our children. I say this with a little bit of fear, because while I want to homeschool, I'm terrified I will actually homeschool our girls. It is such a big responsibility. But parents are the very first educators of their children and we feel strongly that we are being called in that direction. Maybe it is not meant to be, but only time will tell.
I start this blog as a homeschool hopeful with a setback. Here's to hoping my journey over the next few years will lead us on the path to the adventure that is homeschooling.
